Beautiful blog.

Although, I wonder if being partially or slightly spiritual causes more misery than being not spiritual at all?

Imagine, you are Neo from matrix and you took the red pill and except that you didn't get to dive into knowing the truth fully and instead have these fleeting moments you see the reality and then "Maya" or illusion engulfs you. And this cycle continues. These micro-moments of illumination and knowing cause more pain than not knowing at all.

And then you wish to run away fm all these and escape, Ala Buddha. Except that you cannot and ur illumination which would take aeons even with complete dedication will take even longer.

Whats better you ask? Ignorance and chasing the material life for prolonged periods and then escape completely when the time comes or to stay and go through this pain for ages?

Let me be pedantic and say: The Answer lies within ;)